This weekend was an utter shambles. I went out on Friday, got completely trashed, shared a few horny kisses with an attractive blond (male) then got down and dirty with another attractive blond (female) in the toilets. Unfortunately she wouldn't come home with me as she 'didn't sleep with girls', I tried to tell that neither did I, although my fingers slipping in and out of her at the time might have been a give away.
A new friend caught me 10 seconds away from a mind blowing orgasm (self administered, but what can you do?) wich was embarrasing and awkward. I wish people could be a bit more open - although it was my reaction wich surprised me more. I leapt from the bed as if it were a scalding plate, covering myself up and apologising. Is this just inherently in us? She had after all just walked into my room without knocking.
I spent Sunday with S - didn't go out as previously arranged, because he was too hung over, so I went home early because it annoyed me. Monday was with C - now he's an interesting prospect, funny, chatty, horny, fun in bed and seemingly very interested. I don't know why I can't let S go, it would make my life much easier.
I think I'm an Alcoholic, I've been denying it for years, but the times coming when I'll have to face it. I can't keep doing these things to myself.